“Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You.”
~ Psalm 143:8

Do you ever “not like” yourself so much? I wake up in the morning…driven. It’s my familiar, but tyrannical “driven program”. Driven forward…but with no place to go: no clear destination.
I am like a small motorized car, the engine is revved and buzzing and I MUST GO! But I am on a tether; I’m revved, but directionless. So when my feet make contact with the ground, I go…furiously. But I’m just making circles at the end of my tether.
I resent anybody who may be standing in the path of my wild careen. So I buzz my way past my loved ones on my way to nowhere. Buzz, buzz, buzz…madly driven, eyes enflamed in concentration. And what does my demeanor shout? “GET OUTTA MY WAY!”

“Lord Jesus, that’s pretty sad…but that. is. me. I live in my enclosed little world…my enclosed little cockpit…I’m behind the steering wheel and in my thoughts I am going places.
Oh Jesus, quiet me, calm me, here’s the wheel of my life, of my day…I give it to You. I don’t even know where I’m going, and I don’t know the way to get there. Lord, help.”